Hello everybody!
I figure an introduction thread is in order. We'd love to hear your TinkerBell fan origin stories, and really anything that might be relevant to our chatting around here. If you have anything you'd like to contribute to the wiki, make sure you've signed into it - same credentials as here on the forum - and let me know in this thread or in a private message that you'd like editing rights on there.
My Backstory
It may surprise a few of you to learn that I didn't properly experience hentai until I was 20 years old. Shocking, really, considering that I independently thought up the concept of tentacle violation sometime in my early teen years without even knowing it was a thing. And I'm pretty sure that was one of the many private fantasies that starred my high school crush back in the day, who coincidentally bore a striking resemblance to Yukino Hongou from Kowaku no Toki minus the purple-tinted hair.
I am 99% sure that the first proper hentai clip I ever saw was the tentacle scene from episode 2 of Mahou Shoujo Meruru. This was almost certainly followed, within a few weeks, by one scene or another from Inyouchuu The Animation, something I ran into every now and then for the next few years without seeing it as anything special other than being really hot. From what I recall, the name Inyouchuu didn't truly stick in my head until sometime around 2019, when I started to take a bit more notice of the origins of things I'd found. Gradually, I began to realize the series had a lot more interesting lore than I'd previously thought.
Fast forward to early 2024, when I finally came to terms with a lifechanging revelation: I didn't crave having a girl like Mikoto. I wanted to be one. The fact that I didn't understand what was wrong for nearly ten years of being a teenager on what felt like someone else's character profile, and then spent over ten more years consciously wishing I'd been born female, is an absolute embarrassment to my own self-awareness. Anyway, the hormonal treatment that would bring me closer to my ideal form also came with a side effect that worried me: it represses most of one's libido. Was this going to kill my interest in hentai?
The answer, as it turned out, was no. True, I have far, far less drive to seek it out now, but I'm still capable of feeling "in the mood" - it's just a mood I have to put myself into intentionally now, rather than it being a random thing that clouds my judgment. I control my libido now - it doesn't control me.
If anything, my unusual "not horny 99% of the time" attitude means I look at Inyouchuu through a very different lens than most fans. The lore fascinates me, some H-scenes feel more like a fictional science documentary, and character interactions leave me craving more wacky slice-of-life. Heck, it even prompted me to branch out my fanfiction production line.
In December of 2024, JAST USA - the distributor that released an English-localized version of Shin'yaku In'youchuu two years prior - put the game on a 30% off sale, alerted to me when I happened to wander onto EchelonV's Twitter profile. (I have since deleted my account, due to many many things that X/Twitter/Musk have done that I cannot support.) It was then that I decided I needed to buy it. I didn't even necessarily plan on playing it, given I was already aware the games were much more graphic than the OVAs that I always enjoyed. But I still wanted to support the creators that made it all happen.
But then I joined their community on Discord, chatted about it with others, became friends with EchelonV, and finally caved. No pun intended. I had to experience the game myself - and, equipped with screen and face recording to document my experiences, set out on a quest for the Good End, absorbing all the game's lore in the process.
And then I read a line of Takeru's internal monologue at the end of her route, and broke down into tears as I fell in love with this series all over again. (SPOILER WARNING in the next couple paragraphs)
Such a complicated organ is impossible to recover by spiritual means. I'll probably never have children. Good thing I never even planned on getting married... but it still hurts to have a part of me stolen away. A freedom I'll never have the chance to entertain.
Takeru grew up with a relatively masculine name, doesn't entirely conform to one gender or another, and doesn't like people making things unnecessarily personal. She endures body horror that deprives her of opportunities that women should (if they so choose) be rightfully entitled to. And once it all comes to pass, she's stuck with giving herself lifelong treatments under the threat of otherwise becoming something that disgusts her.
Takeru isn't a transgender woman, but her story absolutely nailed how I felt inside IRL, and it hit me hard. And that level of introspection finally unraveled all the other reasons why I had always connected with Inyouchuu so deeply:
- Depending on audience, the tentacle genre is either a power fantasy or a submission fantasy, and while I kinda switched sides on that, it's a powerful image regardless.
- The high school girl aesthetic appeals to a sense of deprivation from ever living as one myself, something I knew subconsciously for much longer than I outwardly understood. I've since learned that the Tsukishiro twins felt the same way and eventually chose to relive the high school life they never had.
- The fact that the adult content mostly involves monsters instead of human men allowed me to indulge in a fantasy that didn't force myself into the avatar of a man, even before "boy, I wish I was her" ever went through my head.
- And the recurring themes of body horror and loss of autonomy of female characters embodied the struggles of my own identity inside.
Inyouchuu might be one of the most unhinged entertainment franchises around, but like every story I've deeply connected with, I think my life is better off for having discovered it. I also became one of the only people in the world to have cosplayed Mikoto, with the other being - if I'm assuming correctly - her actual voice actress.
Fast forward again to recently, and Discord's age-verification policies in 2026 (forced ID submission) are threatening to tear apart NSFW communities within it - and until this point, the only active English-speaking Inyouchuu community that I am aware of was on Discord. Lost media has always upset me, especially the thought of losing even more history and information about the hentai series that (oddly) comforted me more than any other.
And so, I dusted off my limited web administration experience, threw together instances of a forum and wiki, and here we stand today. I don't know how active we'll get around here, but with any luck, the fall of adult spaces on Discord will remind the world to appreciate private community forums.
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